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*Summary of Idealists*

-Make sense of the world using inner   values
-Focus on personal growth and the    growth of others
-Think of themselves as bright,    forgiving and curious
-May sometimes appear stubborn

*More about Idealists*

Idealists put time and energy into developing personal values that they use as a guide through life. They may seek fulfilment by helping others improve themselves and often want to make the world a better place. Idealists only share their inner values with people they respect.
Idealists enjoy discussions about a wide range of topics, particularly those that deal with the future. They are typically easy-going and flexible, but if their values are challenged they may refuse to compromise.

In situations where they can’t use their talents or are unappreciated, Idealists may have trouble expressing themselves and withdraw. Under extreme stress, Idealists may become very critical of others, or lose confidence in their own ability to cope.

Recognition for their work is important to Idealists; however, they are also good at spotting false praise.

*Idealist Careers*
Idealists are often drawn to jobs where they can help people reach their potential. They are also attracted to careers that allow artistic creativity.

makna trima kasih menurut gw tu dalem. rasanya damai aja, bikin hub.antar manusia lebih bagus. semua ngrasa dihargai, efeknya juga bagus untuk yg mengucapkannya, krn pada dasarnya manusia tuh suka berbuat baik. Perasaan bahwa gw kayanya ‘ga pantes’ untuk nerima kebaikan org krn gw sendiri bukan ‘org baik’ juga mendorong gw untuk slalu bilang trima kasih stulus2nya, dari hati yg paling dalem. Lgpula, scara ga langsung, kita juga berterima kasih sama Tuhan kan? karena Dia udah memberikan pertolongan ke kita melalui orang2 di skitar kita. Tuhan tetep bae meskipun kita dah berbuat banyak dosa. Hehe, jadi dalem gini. pengen deh ngucapin trima kasih untuk:
#Tuhan, itu pasti.
#Orang tua, asisten Tuhan untuk   mengasuh kita di dunia.
lebih spesifiknya… trims bradd untuk :
#org yang cuma meluk disaat gw nangis tanpa nanya apa2 ke gw, cukup dengan sedikit elusan. Trims! itu bikin gw damaii.. bgt. lega! kayanya, cuma di dpn org ini gw bisa nangis dengan lepas.
#org yang dah bersedia dengerin gw tentang masalah "polsek". trims bgt!^^
#org yang dengan ikhlas menampung semua kejutekan gw. cuma sama lo gw bisa ber-badmood ria/ngomel2 tanpa harus khawatir lo bkl sedih/tersinggung. trims juga krn lo selalu ngbantuin gw mengenali perasaan gw sendiri.
#org yang dengan gaya ’slengean’nya yg terkesan cuek&peduli ma gw(sring ngatain malah) tapi ternyata… hehe, ga tau deh kata2 yg pas tu apa. lo concern  juga ya!
#org aneh yg suka bgt ngatain+mukulin gw ga jelas, tapi lo skaligus mau dengerin smua curhatan (alah) tentang 6th guy.. masalah kita sama bung!
#org2 yang selalu menjaga&menghargai gw, bikin gw ngrasa nyaman deket kalian. Triiimmsss…
#org yg ga pernah nglupain gw, dan tetep menganggap gw sbagai sahabatnya. thx a lot, girls!
#org yang tetep bae, padahal gw da pernah nyakitin. Maaf bgt&trims!
#org yg dah mau menjadi duplikat (pdhl lo ga blg ‘mau’ sih) trims dah ngasih gw sedikit hiburan.
Wah, ini sih banyak bgt de… pokoknya ARIGATOU, MINNA-SAN…

Alah, judulnya pake jepun2an segala. Isinya indonesia tulen ni.

Kesan pertama…
wah, lo sangar bgt. esp cara lo natap orang. sampe2 gw berdoa smoga ga sekelas sama lo.
Kesan kedua…
(oh, tidak! ternyata kita 1kelas!) dingin, pertanyaan gw pun ga dijwb. tapi entah knp gw punya perasaan yg aneh.
Kesan ketiga…
krn lo duduk di blkg gw, kita mulai ngobrol meskipun msh rada kaku. hehe, lo tuh paling ga bisa pelajaran tata busana. gw inget, lo selalu minta gw untuk masukin benang ke jarum, ajarin macem2 tusuk hias, ajarin cara bikin simpul mati. ternyata lo bisa juga bersikap ramah… dan gw ngerti apa yang gw rasain…^^
Kesan keempat…
kita jadi sering ngobrol, yah gw kseringan jadi pendengar sih. ternyata lo lucu juga! bisa bikin gw ktawa. kimi ga suki! ^o^
Kesan kelima…
kita makin sering ngobrol. sampe2 cewe lo yang duduknya jauh dari kita jadi j-lo. lama-lama lo jadi banyak curhat ttg dia. seperti biasa, gw mendengarkan+ksh solusi sebisanya (dalam hati menangis, bo..)
Kesan kelima…
gw inget bgt waktu lo lbh milih ikut gw daripada sholat di skul. ternyata lo malah bikin gw bingung.
Kesan keenam…
lo putus ma cewe lo. terus terang, gw pengen bgt marahin dia cuz alasannya ga jelas. tapi emang gw sapa?? sok ikut campur… dan sekali lagi gw ngliat sisi ’serem’ lo! lo triak di kmr mandi, nonjok pintu&kluar dgn mata merah. T_T
Kesan ketujuh…
Kita ketemu lagi di bekas skul kita. lo ga brubah, tapi kayanya lo sdkt lbh lembut n_n. dan gw liat sisi manja lo.. XD (aih!)

nah… gitu deh perasaan gw yg udah dirangkum. sbnrnya sih lbh complicated. dah 1taun kita ga ktemu. Di sini gw kaya org bego, ttp suka ma lo slama 6taun. ga tau ah mo nulis apa. rasanya ko norak bgt ya? tp yang jelas…
gw rindu lo ke rumah gw tiap abis latihan.
gw kangen bunyi pantulan bola basket tiap selasa sore di depan rumah gw.
gw kangen suara lo yang manggil gw tiap kali lo pulang lewat depan rumah gw.
ima mo, oboeteru…
ima mo, ice-shiteru… chigau, dareka aishitemo…
my ice-guy!
dah, ah. dasar norak. gw bener2 norak!!! najis tralala.. lupakan lupakan!

8. Joyful memory in your childhood.
    "I can’t remember, I have no memory. If I say about my happy time, I can remember only when I lighted a fire. fuu!  I like living what I like. When I was young, I was very happy. I went to see a river all day, or, in a sunshine day, I went to throw stone blocks at riverside. It’s always like that. For me, going to school in a fine day was my big problem. I liked English subject, so I would make my decision that ‘Go to earthern ridge.’ or ‘Today, go to river.’ At there, I spent my time for reading books even more to studying at school. I didn’t hate studying, but I didn’t like some teachers. So, if he/she was my favorite teacher, I often went to study. And when I studied, I felt like something go into my body. I liked it. Besides, I like night view. When I was young, my grandfather, at Okinawa Navy Base, took me to a little hill for seeing view of crowded area. At there, I could see the light from roads that were very beautiful. There made me feel good. I like night view since then. Later, I often went to my grandfather’s house because there’s the sea in front of the house. I could watch the sea all day. I watched it about 8 hours a day, so I felt the sea become the living thing. Wherever I went, I would often light a fire, and be alone, and many hours a time. Who came with me would feel torment because of sitting without doing anything.(laughs)"

Your idea about homosexual.
   "Idea of people about homosexual that ‘it is not good to have a lot of these things in this world’, it’s quite true. However, I don’t care.   Actually, being a woman or a man is not important.   The important thing is ‘one has got respectation or not’. If my lover is a man, body relation will be impossible because of being the same sex. But if you can clear about it, there’s no problem, and then you’ll think it’s good. For me, my boyfriends around me are only who haven’t had body relation with me, but about feeling, it’s the same as I give to a woman. I think the feeling that will become love, it’s not about sex. But of course, there must be liking. Long hair has no meaning(laughs). But if you have long hair, there’s no problem. I think making a friend is not about being a woman or a man. If someone think I’m bi-sexual because of this interview, go ahead."

9. Talk about a person who has an influence over you.
    "I met that person when I was about 18-19 years old. I was negative abnormally since I was young. However, when I met him, I had changed myself at all. For other people, when someone pours out his grievances, they often say, ‘Is that so ?’ to make the conversation continue smoothly. So, finally, it will be only a consolation. To that person, when I poured out my grievances, he bursted out laughing, and said "Nonsense!…, you think like that because you have your point of view like that. You should think like this." He changed my view. He’s very positive.  He has an influence on me so much. I, at that time, often thought only about the death. The more I stayed with him, the more my view had been postived. I can say I know the meaning of existence, it’s not exaggerated. He is older than me about 10 years, but for me, he is greater than me many many years. When I stayed with him, I was very enjoyed. Many stories he told me were very new to me. And I got some influences of those stories too. His movement was great. At that time, I rarely laughed, but he could make me laugh. Therefore, I think if there were many people as him in this world, this world would be better to us for living. 

(ini gw ambil dari interviewnya!)

Those who saw my concert feel various things. They often say that who has hit on such things: throwing shocking pictures not yet open to other place onto the screen, animal costumes coming on stage unexpectedly, and I flying up at the ending. I say, "that’s my idea," and they are surprised.

    When I talked about those things to my staffs, they all said, "It’s impossible," in every respect: budget, time, and grounds. But I said, "It’s possible." Curiously, I win in the end when I have stronger conviction than those who say, "It’s impossible."

    I would like to challenge various things. For example, I expanded the register of my voice than before because I wanted to make songs as I like, not limited by it. My register was so narrow and voice was so low that I thought my voice was not for a vocalist. But I made up my mind to be a vocalist, and I wouldn’t change the song because it is out of my voice. So, I expanded my voice higher and higher, lower and lower. Of course, It couldn’t make in one or two days, I trained. I always want to look forward, look upward. When I am requested, I want to reply it. I challenge new things, that makes me feel the feeling I’m alive.

    "I had negative thinking way in the past. The chance I changed was…"

    I didn’t have the thinking way like this. I was decadent, destructive, a person who had very negative thinking way until I was 19 years old. I sometimes looked the backside of things, saying "That’s not right." At the age of 20, I met a man, and the thinking way of mine has changed…(Jug: Gackt used to mention about this man in my SG-Interview:English 2 "10 Questions with Gackt" at No.9)

    Those days, in Kyoto, I played in a rock band, but was mainly in the bar and restaurant business. The man, he was 10 years older than I. At first, I disliked him. His word was a fair argument, but disagreeable. But I couldn’t help being attracted to him. Although I disliked him, why am I attracted to him…? It’s because he was cool. I felt that he lived purely. He lives his life on his own feet. Compared with him, I don’t walk. I’m stopping, make to walked, or always look downward, I’m not alive…

    Then, what should I do? Anyway, I determined to be with him, get what he’s thinking, and feel his thinking way… So, I was always with him. I always said the word "But,…" because I had negative  thinking way. What he said was new for me, and I felt his power strongly.

    "The question ‘What is common to the successful person?’ I had answered…"

    One day, I consulted him about what I was worried about. I liked a girl very much, she liked me too, but we had to be separated for some reasons. I was emotionally unstable. I drove a car, a motorbike, at terrific speed, couldn’t sleep at night, behaving violently, like mad… Under such a condition, there were many other problems, I went to see him after all.

    I’m worried about these things, thinking to do this way. But there’re some problems, I’m unable to decide, and thinking "what should I do…" I was thinking about it seriously, worried about it, so I expected him to answer as well as he could.

    Then, he laughed, guffawed, "hahaha…" I was taken aback. I thought that I’m serious… I was angry, you know. "Why are you laughing!?" Then, he said, "You’re funny." "Why?" "If you want to do, you should do it, if you don’t, you don’t need to do it. Why are you saying over and over "I want to do" and "I don’t want to do"? You don’t want to solve your problems. You only want to be worried."

    I was very shocked when I heard it. Certainly, that’s right. And he said naturally, "Some go forward, others don’t. Do you know the difference of them? Why can’t the latter move, why are they worried over and over? It’s simple. It is because they are quick to think. Those who accomplish things don’t think, they are quick to move. You have your head not to be worried. We have it to think up device to get over problems we face with ."

    And there are various successful men, upright men under different business. He asked me "What do you think they have in common?" I answered all I hit on, "social position, money…" He said "No." His answer was "It’s their thinking way. One thinking way decides one’s life. Now, what you think in this moment, that all makes your life."

    The moment I heard that, I was really awakened to the truth. The important thing is, anyway, first, to move into action, and to receive the consequence. When I made a bad one, whether I can think up device to bring it to better side, at that point, the life changes.

    After then, my talking way changed too. I became to be a man of a posteriori reasoning about things. I don’t dawdle talking. At the beginning, I decided what I would like to do, and talk. What is necessary to accomplish what I would like to do? To get the necessaries, move into act at once. My talking way became the other way around. After one year, the negative thinking way in me died out. So, now, I want those who are worried to take notice of it.

    I can say all of negative thinking ways. When I was a child, I was so weak that they were anxious about how long would I live. I was mentally unbalanced. At age 7 I was nearly drowned in the sea, after that, I’m able to see ghosts. At age 10 I became apt to get excited, couldn’t able to control myself, I believed that I was sick, causeless sickness…

    "No one helps me," became mischievous, acted destructively. Break up, everything. The mischievous come together. But I thought they did nothing but escape. It’s futile. And I hate myself, them; then keeping distance from them, being alone.

    "I thought many things; "For what am I alive?" "Where will I go after my death?"

    But we can’t live if we are thinking such a thing. Why? It’s because we’re weak. At the present times, nobody tells us how to live. I happened to meet the person who told me how to live. But it was just a chance. All touch him couldn’t learn. Although there are many chances around, most people won’t see it, or aren’t aware of it because they thought they have nothing to do with it.

    Those who are worried about something sometimes consult me, and I talk about my experience. And I say,"Anyway, don’t be worried, do it." Gackt, used to be all negative, was able to change. "daijobu, kitto dekiru yo" te ne~.

fiuuuhh, skrg tanbah jelas kenapa hw bisa ngefans ma lo. Gw ngrasa cara lo berpikir tu ada yg "gw banget". (btw, pada pnasaran ga siapa cowok yg udah ngerubah pandangan hidup Mr.Camui tercinta kita ini?)

Mr. Camui… pa kabar? hehehe, entah knapa gw bisa suka sama lo. ok lah, byk orang bilang lo tu cakep. Tapi kayanya bukan karena itu deh. Gw tu sering ko nyela2 lo. ngatain lo gigolo lah, waria, weirdo, idung hasil operasi plastik, kambing, dsb. Banyak orang yang muji lo tapi banyak juga yang nyela. Gw pun dah tau kekurangan lo (meskipun bkn krn da knal deket ma lo. mimpi kaleee!) tapi tetep aja ngliat lo di majalah, internet dll gw sumringah! aneh ah gw! padahal kalo boleh jujur nih, dari segi muka lo sama sekali bukan tipe gw. cakep sih, cakep bgt malah. tapi ga ‘klik’ aja. body yang berotot kaya gitu juga ga bgt. di foto juga lo sering sok manis, serius, sangar, ato imut. tapi ga tau knapa ada ’sumthin’ dari lo yang bikin gw jadi ngefans bgt. suara lo? juga bukan. vibra aneh gitu… hmmm, mungkin krn ada bbrp hal (gw juga ga tau hal apa itu) dari lo yang bkin gw ngrasa : "wah, ini sih gw bgt." oh ya, mungkin masa kecil lo? gw juga ngalamin meskipun ga separah lo. Cara berpikir lo yang semuanya tu kayanya kebalikan dari gw (perfeksionis, ga mau kalah dll). Sikap lo yg ga anti musik2 ceria ato mellow padahal lo termasuk j-rocker (jadi orang harus open minded bung!). Mungkin aja… lalu… satu hal lagi ni, kdg gw lbh suka ngliat lo pas masih gabung ma malice mizer. lebih unik aja. Yang jelas gw ngefans bgt kok ma lo! gw bukan salah seorang groupies yang cuma tergila2 ma lo physically. Dah ah, sgini dulu. Jya ne, Gakuto-san!

(Buat fans Gackt, maafkan saya kalo tulisan ini membuat anda sekalian marah atau tersinggung. Peace yo!)

Groarrr… (ceritanya lagi kesel nih)

Hei orang aneh! sekarang gw pgn tanya ma lo, emang muka gw jelek bgt ya sampe tiap kali kalo ktemu gw pasti lo langsung ktawa2 ga jelas! emang sapa yang nglawak bang??

kalo ga ktawa pasti lo ngomong : "caila! ngapain lo?"

ya terserah gw donk mo ngapain. mo nari-nari kek, mo marah-marah, mo yang laen pokoknya! prasaan lo ga pernah kaya gitu ma yang laen (kecuali ma satu lagi temen lo yang sinting itu)

kemaren pas di musholla, gw dah berbaik hati menyapa lo duluan tapi lo malah nengok ke gw dengan gaya sok kaget n mulai ktawa2 ala lo yang ga jelas juntrungannya itu.

ngliat rok gw miring aja kayanya ktawa lo setengah mampus girangnya.

Gw ngluarin hp dari kantong pas di tempat wudhu diktawain lagi.

ToT Tuhaaaaannn… ok, gw nyadar kok tampang gw biasa bgt, bukan tipe cewe perfect. tapi gw kan bukan BADUT? dulu kalo mo ngajak lo ngomong serius kayanya susah bgt. Padahal kalo lo lagi ngomong gw selalu dengerin dengan seksama.

Bgitu gw meleng dikit (nengok ke arah laen ato ngobrol ma orang) lo langsung ngambil gunting dari tempat pensil gw trus nusuk2 penghapus gw!! da berapa alat tulis punya gw yang lo rusakin? disuruh ganti ogah. dasar childish! dah gitu tiap duduk ma gw lo slalu nyodorin kaos kaki ke muka gw. apakah itu sopan???

satu nasehat buat lo : sopan donk bang, gw nih cewe… -_- dah dulu!!! dah puas marah-marahnya..